Day 11

Popped up to 184.4 lbs this morning, that's probably because I'm using my scale again (used my parents' yesterday). No biggie.

Now, some news. Fast is officially broken today. Darn it, not the 30 days I was hoping for, but I promised I would listen to my body.

I was hungry. There were no temptations before me, no smells to entice me. I felt hungry, so I had a glass of water. Then another. Then I had a bit of honey. No go, my tummy was asking for food. So I complied.

I had a Strawberry Nirvana smoothie from Jamba Juice with some sliced almonds on top. It was very nice. Then the BF and I went to Genki Sushi and I had a salad with soybeans in it, hot tea, about half a poke bowl (poke is raw tuna with seasonings, the bowl just means over rice) that wasn't good so I didn't eat much, I ate a few pieces of garlic chicken and I had a fried shrimp (ebi). It was all very nice, and while the fast wasnt broken perfectly, it was still done in what I consider the range of "healthy" food to not be in any danger of blowing everything completely.

It's still a tossup if I'm going to have a papaya for breakfast tomorrow of if I will fast, we shall see.

My BF's birthday is on the 22nd and I'd like to take him to Kobe Steakhouse (he loves that place), so I didn't want to go back into a deep fast prior to it and feel sick when I ate there.

So I'll attempt some intermittent fasting until then, which in my opinion is much harder than a long fast, because you're constantly struggling with the hardest part, which is day 1.

I feel somewhat secure that since I finally reached past the 185 mark that I will hopefully be able to easily maintain closer to this weight than going back up into the 190s again. I feel that the difficulty I had getting there means my body was resetting itself. At least that's my theory.

So, IF and healthfull eating (yay broccoli and brown rice!!) until the 22nd, enjoy a lovely teppanyaki dinner, then I will hop back on the fasting bandwagon again. I'm starting to think that a 30 day fast in undoable with the pressures of daily life, and is best suited to a retreat setting. With that in mind, I think I will just strive to do 7-14 day fasts as often as possible with rests between until I reach my goal. Obviously this will have to be rethought if I only succeed in gaining and losing the same 10 lbs over and over! Considering though, that a 7-14 day fast is pretty much what I've done to get me here (and I maintained the 195 since May), I have a good feeling about it.

While I wish I had managed to stay the course, I leave this fast without guilt (ok ok, maybe a little, but I'm trying!) and with no regrets. I'll try to do right by my body, and since it's been rewarding me with looking better every day, how can I do wrong?

And you shall see me again, as soon as I can muster the willpower again to make it the first day, hopefully very soon after the 22nd.