Bleh. I feel icky. There is a lump of food in my stomach that refuses to go away.
I broke my fast Sunday night as well as all day Monday. That was an experiment in crappiness. I did everything WRONG, and I'm paying the consequences of my actions today.
191 lbs today. 5 stinking pounds in a day and a half of craptacular eating. I suspect 3/4 of that is sitting, undigested in my stomach at this moment.
I just couldn't get around it though. So I'm going to have to take this as a learning experience and use my knowledge for good, not evil.
What have I learned? Don't break a fast incorrectly. Do no go immediately into eating chicken fingers and cheesy french fries with ranch dressing. Delicious as they may be, your poor tummy doesn't know what the hell to do with that crap after 11 days of lounging about with its feet up. Break a fast properly, with juice the first day, fresh soft fruit the next, and so on and so forth.
Well, I'm hoping on the bright side, that this will help me power through that little stall I was having and get me down to the lower 180s sometime next week.
It's hard not to be annoyed when you lose ground this way, but such is life. You are out there, fasting on your own, without the support of most of your friends and family. Being told you are anorexic and crazy if you dare to tell someone 1% of what you're doing. I wish I had the resources to do this in a treatment center, far from those who will talk down to you with no knowledge and farther from those who want you to eat. So this could be your story, and that's why I'm posting it. There is ALWAYS recovery after a screw up. That's called LIFE, people. Nothing is perfect, it's just about getting up, dusting yourself off, taking a lesson from it, and moving forward.
The only way I would fail is if I didn't restart my fast immediately. I had considered going off for a week and restarting, but that was with the belief I would have eaten more reasonably and healthily than I did. Since I chose not to, I don't feel I'm ready to make good choices like I did at the end of my first fast.
Another good way to look at this is now I can go for another 2 week fast and manage to do a month long fast with 1 break in the middle :)
Now a cousin is visiting. She's coming in today (oh when will this END!!) I will tell them I'm seeing them on days I'm fasting (IF). If they bug me to visit on days I'm not fasting, I'll tell them I'm purposely seeing them on my fast days to keep me from overindulging when I'm not :) That sounds like a good plan!
I'm bummed at the idea of having to go through some of the detox crap again. :(
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I'm so excited i found this! We are about the same weight and i am HOPING to start a 12-14day water fast as of today. How tall are you? you give me hope, that you've lost 17lbs in 12 days! :)
ReplyDeleteI Renee, thanks for reading. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm 5'5". The weight comes off very, very quickly. I'm currently on a new fast (after breaking mine poorly) and I'm down to 189 as of this morning. It's only been 5 days, and though I didn't weigh before I started, I figure I was 195-198 when I started.
I haven't felt like documenting this fast as closely in the early days, mainly because it seems redundant. I will surely post when I get around 2 weeks or so. I'm planning on going 30 days this time :)
Enjoy reading, and please just let me know if you have any questions via the comments.
Whoops, I signed in under the wrong account! The above post was from me :)
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